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I love Kathy Griffin but Suddenly Susan sucks. But I'm still using it as the basis of my subject for this post so there you go. Anyway, I'm posting because I'm currently avoiding opening my work account email that I use when I apply to endless amounts of jobs. I just got two emails. Both of which are replies to my inquiries about internship and work positions available in the legal clerical field for the St. Louis Circuit Courts and the St. Louis Law Library. I don't know why but I'm freaked out about opening these emails which is just not me. I'm not shy by any meaning of the word for the most part. This might be happening because I sent the emails out of the blue last night and I'm not really sure about what kind of responses I'm going to be getting and these are fairly important job employers if you ask me.
During my recent deluge of interviews at US Bank I was asked what was the biggest obstacle I have overcome and out of nowhere I began talking about when I first graduated high school. I got this scholarship to the Academy of Art in San Francisco but I was scared about leaving Missouri so I turned it down and ended up going to community college until I eventually moved out to California anyway with a friend of mine. But that initial fear of moving, of change and going to a brand new place, it totally stymied my life. On and off I think about how different my life would've been if I hadn't been a chickenshit at 17 and would have just gone out to San Francisco.
Anyway. I think that's what this is, you know? The fear of opening a fucking email. I'm actually feeling irked at myself for this and you know, I think I'll open it now. Hah! Take that fear! Ugh. My stomach hurts.
[Insert five minute pause]
Well. That sucked ass. They don't accept internships. On the upside I found the job application site for the St. Louis County government. Whee. Life goes on.
During my recent deluge of interviews at US Bank I was asked what was the biggest obstacle I have overcome and out of nowhere I began talking about when I first graduated high school. I got this scholarship to the Academy of Art in San Francisco but I was scared about leaving Missouri so I turned it down and ended up going to community college until I eventually moved out to California anyway with a friend of mine. But that initial fear of moving, of change and going to a brand new place, it totally stymied my life. On and off I think about how different my life would've been if I hadn't been a chickenshit at 17 and would have just gone out to San Francisco.
Anyway. I think that's what this is, you know? The fear of opening a fucking email. I'm actually feeling irked at myself for this and you know, I think I'll open it now. Hah! Take that fear! Ugh. My stomach hurts.
[Insert five minute pause]
Well. That sucked ass. They don't accept internships. On the upside I found the job application site for the St. Louis County government. Whee. Life goes on.
