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In my lamest class which Suzanna and I have affectionately named the Dr.Phil/Oprah class I finally snapped. We have a 50ish former army soldier in the class who uses any political reference to bash John Kerry and pimp George W. Bush which drives me insane. Today I had enough and after he did it yet again I said loudly, "Could you PLEASE not use this class to pimp George Bush? As a supporter of Kerry I find it insulting and as homosexual I find it offensive."
When I went out to smoke I found out a few people in class I had mistakenly assumed liked him and agreed with his opinions actually DID NOT and were simply putting up with his loud obnoxious behavior for whatever unfathomable reason. I was relieved to find out I wasn't the only Kerry supporter in the class and they were relieved to find out the reason I stated I was gay was only in hopes of getting him to finally shut up (by making it personal to me) and not that I was a rabid crazed gay activist. I say that because I've known activists and they bug the living shit out of me.
Funny thing though? Now I feel embarassed and shitty about my outburst in response to what he said. It wasn't thought out at all and in retrospect, I find it incredibly childish. I also wince about how I emphasized the fact that I'm gay in what I said because I hate that type of thing. You know, where someone picks one small aspect of themself and then make it their defining characteristic. For many gay people they use this with their sexuality which is probably the lamest thing to base your self image around. When I said that in class it implied that sort of belief. Making it feel like being gay is central to all my thoughts and beliefs when that's nowhere true as I view who I'm attracted to sexually to be just a minute part of who I am.
Ugh. I hope this shitty feeling does go away soon though. It fucking annoys me.
After class I got invited out for drinks by Tyler and Tom, two guys in my class. I went out with them and as I was leaving to go back to my apt that I share with Suzanna I run into Jaymi the SB President. I tell her I'm going home and she says where's that, I tell her the Central West End apartment as Suzanna is getting home around 1 am from yet another trip back from Fort Worth for AA business.
Jaymi asks if I'm up for going to get a few more drinks and invites me to Nik's which is an upscale wine bar around my apartment with Suzanna. I say sure and ask her if she wants me to invite anyone to meet us and she just gives me this huge sexy big smile and says it's up to me.
Natch. I get that.
So I call Van up on the phone from my car and say Jaymi and I are going to Nik's for some drinks and conversation, would she join us. Van is there before I am. lol. That girl can fucking drive. I swear I envy her at times for that. We got there around 11: 30 pm or so and Suzanna called me when her plane landed like 10 minutes before 1 am as the flight was early and I told her where we were. Strangely enough, she wasn't tired from her business trip so she agreed to meet us at Nik's.
By now I've had 5 beers and 4 glasses of wine and fuck if I know what kind of wine right now. I know it was red because that's the kind I like, not white. I let Van order for me. Suffice it to say I was nicely buzzed by the time Suzanna arrived. Nicely buzzed enough to greet her with quite the kiss I'm told and by the French standards at that.
I was too happily buzzed to tell if Van/Jaymi are now hitting it off but it was a nice night. Especially after how angry I was at that fucking Bush pimping asshole in my class. I told Jaymi about it and she laughed her ass off about it and said good for me for telling him off. Ugh. I hate people who just spout their opinions and don't allow anyone else to talk. When I was out with Tyler and Tom I told them I registered so I could vote for McCain in the primaries and how upset I was when he lost to Bush. It's not Republicans I hate, it's not even Bush, it's the supporters who refuse to listen to reason and have an educated debate. Guys like him who just shout their fucking opinions from the rooftop but don't let anyone else speak or more importantly, RESPECT what other people might think or feel. No one in my class wanted to hear him rant and rave about Bush then doggedly insult Kerry whenever he got the chance. That's not what we are there for. That's not what the class is about.
Point? A crappy night turned out sort of good and apparently I made out heavily with my girlfriend in an upscale winery bar. Hehehe. Fun for me.
When I went out to smoke I found out a few people in class I had mistakenly assumed liked him and agreed with his opinions actually DID NOT and were simply putting up with his loud obnoxious behavior for whatever unfathomable reason. I was relieved to find out I wasn't the only Kerry supporter in the class and they were relieved to find out the reason I stated I was gay was only in hopes of getting him to finally shut up (by making it personal to me) and not that I was a rabid crazed gay activist. I say that because I've known activists and they bug the living shit out of me.
Funny thing though? Now I feel embarassed and shitty about my outburst in response to what he said. It wasn't thought out at all and in retrospect, I find it incredibly childish. I also wince about how I emphasized the fact that I'm gay in what I said because I hate that type of thing. You know, where someone picks one small aspect of themself and then make it their defining characteristic. For many gay people they use this with their sexuality which is probably the lamest thing to base your self image around. When I said that in class it implied that sort of belief. Making it feel like being gay is central to all my thoughts and beliefs when that's nowhere true as I view who I'm attracted to sexually to be just a minute part of who I am.
Ugh. I hope this shitty feeling does go away soon though. It fucking annoys me.
After class I got invited out for drinks by Tyler and Tom, two guys in my class. I went out with them and as I was leaving to go back to my apt that I share with Suzanna I run into Jaymi the SB President. I tell her I'm going home and she says where's that, I tell her the Central West End apartment as Suzanna is getting home around 1 am from yet another trip back from Fort Worth for AA business.
Jaymi asks if I'm up for going to get a few more drinks and invites me to Nik's which is an upscale wine bar around my apartment with Suzanna. I say sure and ask her if she wants me to invite anyone to meet us and she just gives me this huge sexy big smile and says it's up to me.
Natch. I get that.
So I call Van up on the phone from my car and say Jaymi and I are going to Nik's for some drinks and conversation, would she join us. Van is there before I am. lol. That girl can fucking drive. I swear I envy her at times for that. We got there around 11: 30 pm or so and Suzanna called me when her plane landed like 10 minutes before 1 am as the flight was early and I told her where we were. Strangely enough, she wasn't tired from her business trip so she agreed to meet us at Nik's.
By now I've had 5 beers and 4 glasses of wine and fuck if I know what kind of wine right now. I know it was red because that's the kind I like, not white. I let Van order for me. Suffice it to say I was nicely buzzed by the time Suzanna arrived. Nicely buzzed enough to greet her with quite the kiss I'm told and by the French standards at that.
I was too happily buzzed to tell if Van/Jaymi are now hitting it off but it was a nice night. Especially after how angry I was at that fucking Bush pimping asshole in my class. I told Jaymi about it and she laughed her ass off about it and said good for me for telling him off. Ugh. I hate people who just spout their opinions and don't allow anyone else to talk. When I was out with Tyler and Tom I told them I registered so I could vote for McCain in the primaries and how upset I was when he lost to Bush. It's not Republicans I hate, it's not even Bush, it's the supporters who refuse to listen to reason and have an educated debate. Guys like him who just shout their fucking opinions from the rooftop but don't let anyone else speak or more importantly, RESPECT what other people might think or feel. No one in my class wanted to hear him rant and rave about Bush then doggedly insult Kerry whenever he got the chance. That's not what we are there for. That's not what the class is about.
Point? A crappy night turned out sort of good and apparently I made out heavily with my girlfriend in an upscale winery bar. Hehehe. Fun for me.
