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Okay, so I'm a huge fucking nerd, right? I've been entrenched in all sorts of online chat communities since the tender age of fourteen. And that sentence, well, the tender part anyway, totally makes me sound like a well prepared expensive piece of meat like evil baby veal cutlets. Uhm... yeah. But I've been online for a long ass time and I've been writing fanfic since I was sixteen so for almost all of the time I've been online I've been ensconced in the fandom communities.
Which means I'm pretty damn used to weird ass shite.
One of the things I've never really gotten was the whole online romance deal. The hooking up online seems very odd to me and I'm not sure why. My confusion comes from the fact that I honestly believe the friends I feel the most, I dunno, I guess connected to are the ones I originally met online. Simply because when you chat with someone in this medium it really is all about personalities. There's none of that sort of weird reasoning you have with face to face encounters. Stuff like you're friends with someone because you think they're really sweet but when you hang out you almost have shit to talk about because there's nothing there. When you talk with someone online it really is about a more in depth connection. But on the other hand, the only reason I think this could be the fact that I've been known to hang out with girls simply to be around their hotness. lol. It's so fucking bad but whatever. I admit it so that makes it less bad somehow, doesn't it? Hah. No, that's bullshit. It's still bad but whatever to the second power.
I've gotten tons of strange emails about my fanfic. A few of them were rather creepily referencing sex scenes I've written and declaring I must be good in bed. I've also had one or two that claim, in a jesting way, to be in love with me because of my fics. I'm fairly sure those were indeed just jokes but I got a squeamish feeling about that crap all the same. Today I went into my dreiser7 email account and got a weird ass letter from the following website...
http://www.secretadmirer.com/
Part of me vaguely recalls this site because I think I got another email from them years ago. If you've never heard of the site and don't feel like clicking on the link here's the explanation on what this is all about from the site itself:
#1. Sending Your Message
It all starts when you send a SecretAdmirer email message to someone you like, by filling out the form on our "To Send" page.
#2. The Response
When the person receives your anonymous message, they'll be flattered, and kind of curious. But there's only one way for them to try to find out who sent it.
They have to send an anonymous SecretAdmirer email message of their own. So they'll come here and do just what you did: they'll send one (or a few) to someone (or everyone) they like. The message they send will look the same as the one shown above.
#3. The Match
If all goes well, the person they send a message to will be you. At that point, the SecretAdmirer database will recognize that we've got a match. A match occurs whenever two people send SecretAdmirer messages to each other.
We'll automatically email you both the good news, in the form of a match message. The match message will reveal your identities to each other, and inform you both that your feelings are mutual.
The message is anonymous: the person who receives it doesn't know who sent it. The return email address will always be cupid@secretadmirer.com". (By the way, if you need to find someone's email address, we'll show you how when you get to it.)
This shit frustrates the fuck out of me because I'm a horrifically curious mother fucker and I want to know who the hell sent this. Not because I plan on pursuing anything romantically but just because I fucking want to know who sent this.
Dude. I sound angry there. I'm not though. I'm just painfully curious and frustrated because I suck at this kind of crap. Generally I have a good vibe when it comes to knowing when people like me but that's not in a romantic way. I'm good at telling when people are amused by me and would want to spend more time with me because of that. It's how I make new friends or something.
I've got no game at all when it comes to spotting people who crush on me. Especially fucking online. That shit is beyond the scope of my tiny ass brain. So if whoever the fuck sent this to me is reading this post I say to them: Auuuugh! Tell me who you are you bastard! And that...
Anonymous internet secret admirers make Nic an insane dyke.
Anonymous internet secret admirers make Nic an insane dyke.
Anonymous internet secret admirers make Nic an insane dyke.
Anonymous internet secret admirers make Nic an insane dyke.
Anonymous internet secret admirers make Nic an insane dyke.
Anonymous internet secret admirers make Nic an insane dyke.
Anonymous internet secret admirers make Nic an insane dyke.
Anonymous internet secret admirers make Nic an insane dyke.
Anonymous internet secret admirers make Nic an insane dyke.
Yeah, I just watched The Shining and Stephen King rules all.
I've also been working really hard on finishing Part 3 of ATWH. For the nerdy ass hell of it I've made a Dana focused playlist. I have songs in it that I think sort of relate well to her personality or storylines on the show. Hah. I'm such a goddamn geek. Anyway, here's one of those songs.
Happy Girl by Martina McBride:
http://s42.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=0EA123UB4K3YM3K9J6K0WVDLD1
Because while I do believe Dana is so fucking angst filled she is also incredibly happy at certain points in the series. I think what makes Dana so likable is she's not really that good at hiding her emotions. She's very honest in that manner but at the same time while she can't hide them she doesn't share them with people all that easily. Ah well. Enough analyzing Dana. I need to sleep.
Which means I'm pretty damn used to weird ass shite.
One of the things I've never really gotten was the whole online romance deal. The hooking up online seems very odd to me and I'm not sure why. My confusion comes from the fact that I honestly believe the friends I feel the most, I dunno, I guess connected to are the ones I originally met online. Simply because when you chat with someone in this medium it really is all about personalities. There's none of that sort of weird reasoning you have with face to face encounters. Stuff like you're friends with someone because you think they're really sweet but when you hang out you almost have shit to talk about because there's nothing there. When you talk with someone online it really is about a more in depth connection. But on the other hand, the only reason I think this could be the fact that I've been known to hang out with girls simply to be around their hotness. lol. It's so fucking bad but whatever. I admit it so that makes it less bad somehow, doesn't it? Hah. No, that's bullshit. It's still bad but whatever to the second power.
I've gotten tons of strange emails about my fanfic. A few of them were rather creepily referencing sex scenes I've written and declaring I must be good in bed. I've also had one or two that claim, in a jesting way, to be in love with me because of my fics. I'm fairly sure those were indeed just jokes but I got a squeamish feeling about that crap all the same. Today I went into my dreiser7 email account and got a weird ass letter from the following website...
http://www.secretadmirer.com/
Part of me vaguely recalls this site because I think I got another email from them years ago. If you've never heard of the site and don't feel like clicking on the link here's the explanation on what this is all about from the site itself:
#1. Sending Your Message
It all starts when you send a SecretAdmirer email message to someone you like, by filling out the form on our "To Send" page.
#2. The Response
When the person receives your anonymous message, they'll be flattered, and kind of curious. But there's only one way for them to try to find out who sent it.
They have to send an anonymous SecretAdmirer email message of their own. So they'll come here and do just what you did: they'll send one (or a few) to someone (or everyone) they like. The message they send will look the same as the one shown above.
#3. The Match
If all goes well, the person they send a message to will be you. At that point, the SecretAdmirer database will recognize that we've got a match. A match occurs whenever two people send SecretAdmirer messages to each other.
We'll automatically email you both the good news, in the form of a match message. The match message will reveal your identities to each other, and inform you both that your feelings are mutual.
The message is anonymous: the person who receives it doesn't know who sent it. The return email address will always be cupid@secretadmirer.com". (By the way, if you need to find someone's email address, we'll show you how when you get to it.)
This shit frustrates the fuck out of me because I'm a horrifically curious mother fucker and I want to know who the hell sent this. Not because I plan on pursuing anything romantically but just because I fucking want to know who sent this.
Dude. I sound angry there. I'm not though. I'm just painfully curious and frustrated because I suck at this kind of crap. Generally I have a good vibe when it comes to knowing when people like me but that's not in a romantic way. I'm good at telling when people are amused by me and would want to spend more time with me because of that. It's how I make new friends or something.
I've got no game at all when it comes to spotting people who crush on me. Especially fucking online. That shit is beyond the scope of my tiny ass brain. So if whoever the fuck sent this to me is reading this post I say to them: Auuuugh! Tell me who you are you bastard! And that...
Anonymous internet secret admirers make Nic an insane dyke.
Anonymous internet secret admirers make Nic an insane dyke.
Anonymous internet secret admirers make Nic an insane dyke.
Anonymous internet secret admirers make Nic an insane dyke.
Anonymous internet secret admirers make Nic an insane dyke.
Anonymous internet secret admirers make Nic an insane dyke.
Anonymous internet secret admirers make Nic an insane dyke.
Anonymous internet secret admirers make Nic an insane dyke.
Anonymous internet secret admirers make Nic an insane dyke.
Yeah, I just watched The Shining and Stephen King rules all.
I've also been working really hard on finishing Part 3 of ATWH. For the nerdy ass hell of it I've made a Dana focused playlist. I have songs in it that I think sort of relate well to her personality or storylines on the show. Hah. I'm such a goddamn geek. Anyway, here's one of those songs.
Happy Girl by Martina McBride:
http://s42.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=0EA123UB4K3YM3K9J6K0WVDLD1
Because while I do believe Dana is so fucking angst filled she is also incredibly happy at certain points in the series. I think what makes Dana so likable is she's not really that good at hiding her emotions. She's very honest in that manner but at the same time while she can't hide them she doesn't share them with people all that easily. Ah well. Enough analyzing Dana. I need to sleep.
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And I also just realized that your little spam comment means you think I possibly DON'T have a real secret admirer and I'm just mired in spam evil. Pern! Just because I'm huge ass nerd doesn't mean I can't make people fall into internet wub with me. rofl. That's twisted.