Sunday, August 13th, 2006 08:46 pm
Ohhh, snap!

Look at how I changed up the meet and greet thing to meet and grief. You can tell I have the skills to be a professional writer, no? lol.

Anyway. I'm super nervous because for two days in a row I have to do somewhat stressful and definitely life changing meet and greet meetings. The first is on Monday and is the new recruits meeting for Roller Derby.

Basically it sort of determines if I get invited to skate with them on Wednesdays regularly and if that happens then I can officially join the league and be on a team and yadda yadda. I'm hella nervous because I haven't really skated at that level since I was eighteen and I'm twenty eight now. Plus I'm wondering how old I'm going to be compared to most girls. And how out of shape.

But I really super duper want to do this so I'm going to suck up my nerves and just fucking go. I might end up buying some cigarettes before I go though. I feel that nervous about it.

Then on Tuesday I have my all day meeting at UMSL for transfer students where I set up financial aid, register for classes, and just get everything ready to go for the upcoming fall semester. I'm fairly sure I won't be the oldest person there but who the hell knows. I still wonder at my losery aspect of myself since I live at home with my parents and all.

You know, I wonder if I was like single and I went online dating at Yahoo personals or something if I could land a date if I was honest about my situation. The whole living at home with my parents in the basement, having no money, going back to school for the third time, and being a total fucking nerd who would rather stay at home and read a comic book then go clubbing.

Hmmm. I ponder this. I doubt I would get any dates. Good thing I have Michi. I'm so not a catch compared to what's on the current lesbian dating market.
Monday, August 14th, 2006 03:50 am (UTC)
Good luck to you with the roller skating thing.

As for what you were saying about being a "catch" - I've wondered the same thing about myself at times. I'm older than you, and decided to buy a place with my mother. She lives upstairs. I live downstairs. I could be back in NYC living in my apartment, still paying rent or here with an investment. Outsiders will see the situation one way, but the most important thing is how you see it. You have to find the positives, and go from there.
Monday, August 14th, 2006 05:16 am (UTC)
over weight, jobless, 10 year college student, getting his "philosophy degree", living with his dad and brother, plays video games, roleplays, reads sci-fi/fantasy almost exclusively, (do you want to throw in my previous dating history? (bleak as it is))

yeah you so are not even year my league of patheticness.
Monday, August 14th, 2006 08:32 am (UTC)
Good luck the next couple of days!

Where is the current dating market, could you please point me in the right direction?
about being a catch, I am so far on the opposite side of the spectrum, I think I have fallen off the wagon: 28 years, so many student loans that after paying back I am old enough to retire, more useless education that I dare to admit, most people bore me and I hate clubbing and crowds and my fave past-times are sort of antisocial, according to my parents and even my shrink I am "difficult", I am a workaholic, and my line of work and the schedule is such a turn off that I usually don't make it to the first date ....
yeah, that sounds awesome, doesn't it?
BUT: I am moving out next week and my apartment is awesome. I have to fix a couple of things, or try to, but then I should advertise with my apartment and not my personality. that might at least give me a shot.
Monday, August 14th, 2006 01:33 pm (UTC)
I see positives. Mostly. lol. I have the realization I'm a likable person and that saves me in most social interactions. Because I'm certainly not a supermodel nor do I have the bling. So there's that.
Monday, August 14th, 2006 01:38 pm (UTC)
It's a contest now? lol. Dude, did you ever get my message? I called your cell phone a week or so ago. I wanted to know if you would like to hang out before your NYC trip. That's coming up soon, isn't it? And dude, you're about to graduate college and you have a way spiffy girl now. So yay on that.
Monday, August 14th, 2006 01:42 pm (UTC)
Thanks! I'll do my best. I think the current dating market is usually located in the downtown area of any populated metropolis near the alcohol, loud music, and scantily dressed people. It's pretty easy to spot.

What's your job? How awesome is your apartment? Does it have hardwood floors and a balcony? I would kill for hardwood floors. I so loathe carpeting.
Monday, August 14th, 2006 06:34 pm (UTC)
snap, that is why I haven't found anyone worth dating lately - I tend to wear shirts AND pants, avoid crowds like the pest, and don't drink.

I got so lucky lately, that I am sure that something bad must happen soon. I got into Europe's best residency program in my speciality (they only have 4 spots each year), which thank God is in a rather cool city (not in Bath - UK, or Tübingen - Germany, good programs but there is nothing), and my apartment is under the roof, has no balcony but loads of windows, a great view, one huge room, and a tiny bedroom. look (not my furniture though, but I am taking over most of it):
http://i37.photobucket.com/albums/e76/narcolepsy_slds/B_F_1_basic.jpg
http://i37.photobucket.com/albums/e76/narcolepsy_slds/B_F_2_basic.jpg
Tuesday, August 15th, 2006 02:38 am (UTC)
Your apartment kicks @$$! The dating scene is generally located in the downtown area of a city ? - then why did I leave there for bumblebleep nowhere near a date ? Darn...
Tuesday, August 15th, 2006 07:41 am (UTC)
yeah, I got so lucky lately, and this place is quite cheap compared to what you have to pay for downtown flats here. okay, there is no elevator, but so what.
Right now I am living with my parents in the middle of nowhere, so the dating scene HAS to be somewhere else, hopefully where I am living soon.
Tuesday, August 15th, 2006 07:44 am (UTC)
Good Luck with this week! I will have my fingers, even my broken one, crossed for you. Have you decided what name you will skate under when you get into the team?

I may as well join the crowd here. I loathe clubs and would rather stay at home curled up listening to music or something.
When I do go out, it's to a concert. None of my friends are into the indie scene so I tend to go alone...
I work a crap job, study full time in a course that will most likely leave me unemployed and on the dole come Christmas. As for the living arrangements, well it's almost like living in a cardboard box! Not the most glamourous.
As for relationships, let's not even go there! The word 'Commitment' terrifies me!


Tuesday, August 15th, 2006 02:01 pm (UTC)
Here's to improving the dating scene for all of us - who want it! lol
Tuesday, August 15th, 2006 04:29 pm (UTC)
*g* baby steps!