Aimless Anxiety

[dreiser]

I know I made the right decision by taking this job with the Highway Patrol because of all it offers me but I'm still freaked out about it. I mean, I've never done dispatching AT ALL and now I'm going to be a public safety dispatcher for fairly large police organization? Kind of daunting.

It doesn't help that I was super comfortable and happy at the court. I mean, the only reason I'm leaving there is it really is a dead end job... you can't get any real significant raises. Only if you become a supervisor or move to another department. And even if that happens to you the raises tend to be in the $50-100 more range. Kind of suck ass.

They're throwing me a going away party on May 18th which is super sweet of them. Because of my mini-vacation to Chicago for Anime Central that's going to be my last day. I was supposed to start at the Highway Patrol on May 15th but my supervisor said I needed to stay on the rest of the week in order to leave in good standing with the court. Since I've never been fired or left a job in bad standing I called my future supervisor at the Highway Patrol back and after a few minutes of contemplation and checking with his higher ups he said for me to start on May 20th.

Thing is, I'm going to be a week behind in training. Again, suck ass. But at least he understood where I was coming from about not wanting to leave in bad standing.

I'm shocked I got this job, honestly I am. Maybe they saw something in me that I don't? I dunno, I think it takes a really special person to work this kind of gig and I do think I'm capable but I never saw myself as that kind of special. I guess I'm going to find out though.

In other totally non-related news I've been watching a lot of Dark Phoenix music videos on YouTube and I think I might have to watch X3 again just for all the Famke goodness. My god, how is it possible that she's so fucking good as Jean Grey and then Phoenix but the movie can still suck so much? Maybe I should take it to ACen so we can watch it drunk. It's certainly bad enough to warrant viewing for our bad movie parties.

I do love me some Jean Grey though. My first lesbian nerd girl crush on a fictional character, she is. :::Sigh::: I'm still working on plotting out my Neither Angels sequel, This Mortal Coil. It's going pretty well and I'm currently working my way through Buffy: Season 5. Thus far I've watched Season 7 (finally) and Season 4. I know, I'm not going in any sort of order but whatever. I'm getting back into the Buffy groove and that's what's important.

What else? Vlad peed on my bed this past week. With me in it I might add. I have no idea why. I think either a) He was pissed (ha ha) at me or b) He had to go to the bathroom, tried to wake me up to tell me, I didn't wake up, so he peed on me and the bed.

Needless to say he's locked out the bedroom for awhile, no matter how cute he looks.

Comments

[mutedtempest.livejournal.com]

I think it speaks volumes on your future supervisor's opinion on your ability to handle it that he's willing to let you start a week later. Yeah, it does take a certain kind of person to do a job like that, but personally I think you'll be great at it. I mean, I have nothing on which to base that assumption other than the fact that your new supervisor is putting so much faith in you, but that pretty much says it all right there. Point being that someone in a position like that wouldn't chance his own standing if he didn't think you'd be perfect for the job.

So yeah, yay you, I'm really glad to hear that you got it. As comfortable as the court job sounded, work's about making money, so I don't think you should have any regrets about the whole thing.

Also, I finally downloaded the first season of Buffy, mainly because I seriously need to get out of this stupid L-Word obsession I'm stuck in. That's not really relevant to your post at all, aside from the fact that I'll more than likely read your fanfics pertaining to that fandom before too long, since I always seem to wind up getting obsessed with whatever show I happen to be into at the moment. So yay, or something similar.

Forgive the rambling, I'm hyped up on caffeine, no sleep, and incessant typing not one but two updates to stories. I need a life.

[dreiser.livejournal.com]

I've only got a handful of my Buffy fics online on my fanfic website but hopefully I'll get all the oneshots up there soon. Most of them pertain to Faith or Willow/Tara. Basically meaning that you probably won't get the content until you watch Season 3 & 4 and all the ones after. Buffy is a great fandom to get into but be warned, Joss Whedon does like to cause him some pain. And unlike IC he's way more effective in crushing the hearts of his fanbase.