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The job that I've been waiting on? The government contracted one? The one with the endless FBI background check? I got in contact with the Defense Logistics Agency and they completed both of my background checks. One in December the other in the start of January. So today I call Alutiiq and ask what's up with my job. My contact there has been transferred and the lady says she'll get back to me when she figured it out.
No call after five hours so I call her. Guess what? MY JOB NO LONGER EXISTS. I've waited months and months for a job that I can no longer have and I've turned down other jobs in the process!
Overall I tend to be someone who doesn't dwell on the shitty things in life. I don't think it serves any purpose to be that way but this? This I think I'll dwell on for awhile. I just... my life sucks so hard right now... and I hate it. I really fucking hate it and to lesser extent I sort of hate myself too.
No call after five hours so I call her. Guess what? MY JOB NO LONGER EXISTS. I've waited months and months for a job that I can no longer have and I've turned down other jobs in the process!
Overall I tend to be someone who doesn't dwell on the shitty things in life. I don't think it serves any purpose to be that way but this? This I think I'll dwell on for awhile. I just... my life sucks so hard right now... and I hate it. I really fucking hate it and to lesser extent I sort of hate myself too.