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My job life sucks to the Nth degree right now and I think it really relates back to me picking extremely poorly when it comes to education. I have a BFA in Multimedia & Web Design from a private art institute which I consider to be worth about as much as a piece of poopy toilet paper. Then, inexplicably, I went to get an Associates degree to be a paralegal which is more valuable considering unlike the BFA it got me jobs working in the legal field and in law enforcement. Here's the thing though. I never wanted to do those things really.
In my far off fanciful dreams I wanted to be a writer but I've given up on that and for the love of god, don't reply to this saying that I should still try because there's no way I'm taking out more fucking loans for an English degree of all things. There's just no damn way. After that I had a thing for computers, I still do, but I was reluctant to do computer science for the math even though I loved learning the languages. Thus I decided I would go for the art and design angle with computers which has worked out just shittily for me.
Thus I'm thinking, you know, the job I want most is doing things with computers. Data analyst, system analyst, software programming, things of this nature I really would love. I mean, I know it's mind numbing tedious at times but I find it relaxing and it's steady work that is never going away. That's why I'm considering going back to school yet again but this time no fucking bullshit. I would go to University of Missouri St. Louis and get a Bachelor of Science in Computer Science and hopefully get a decent job with it.
The idea freaks me the hell out because... it's more money I'd owe and it's tons of work and it's having to take at least four advanced level math courses and I suck so hardcore at math. I really am considering doing this though because, honestly, it's something I've wanted to do for years but have never done it because of the cost and I think I was really wrong for that. If I had just gone to UMSL for computer science back in 2004 I would be done with school right now with one of those jobs I want so badly.
Because of my consideration of going back to school, yet again, Jeebus Christ I can't believe I'm thinking of doing this, I'm focusing my job hunt on retail and customer service due to the flexible hours. Hopefully something will come up. I have an interview on Monday with this technology job placement company about working as a help line person for a company that sells those books with cd-roms. We'll see how that goes. I just want a job that has hours where I could go to school full time easily.
I really can't believe I'm thinking about doing this. I don't like school, honestly, I just like the money and the job this could get me.
In my far off fanciful dreams I wanted to be a writer but I've given up on that and for the love of god, don't reply to this saying that I should still try because there's no way I'm taking out more fucking loans for an English degree of all things. There's just no damn way. After that I had a thing for computers, I still do, but I was reluctant to do computer science for the math even though I loved learning the languages. Thus I decided I would go for the art and design angle with computers which has worked out just shittily for me.
Thus I'm thinking, you know, the job I want most is doing things with computers. Data analyst, system analyst, software programming, things of this nature I really would love. I mean, I know it's mind numbing tedious at times but I find it relaxing and it's steady work that is never going away. That's why I'm considering going back to school yet again but this time no fucking bullshit. I would go to University of Missouri St. Louis and get a Bachelor of Science in Computer Science and hopefully get a decent job with it.
The idea freaks me the hell out because... it's more money I'd owe and it's tons of work and it's having to take at least four advanced level math courses and I suck so hardcore at math. I really am considering doing this though because, honestly, it's something I've wanted to do for years but have never done it because of the cost and I think I was really wrong for that. If I had just gone to UMSL for computer science back in 2004 I would be done with school right now with one of those jobs I want so badly.
Because of my consideration of going back to school, yet again, Jeebus Christ I can't believe I'm thinking of doing this, I'm focusing my job hunt on retail and customer service due to the flexible hours. Hopefully something will come up. I have an interview on Monday with this technology job placement company about working as a help line person for a company that sells those books with cd-roms. We'll see how that goes. I just want a job that has hours where I could go to school full time easily.
I really can't believe I'm thinking about doing this. I don't like school, honestly, I just like the money and the job this could get me.