To Write Or Not To Write

[dreiser]

I'm one of those fanfic writers who likes feedback, particularly the kind that is thoughtful and focuses on my fuck ups and things that could improve my work, but I don't need it to keep writing. I've written tons of stories that get no attention at all and I love them to pieces. For me, fanfic is about me writing things I want to see happen to characters I love. Just simple stories I want to see told.

One of my girlier traits is being fucking fickle. I flit from one fandom and one ship to another with very little loyalty at that. I don't tend to have OTP's. I'll pair a character I like with several different people if it suits my fancy. All it takes is decent chemistry, good characters, and something inexplicable for me to be drawn to a new focus for fanfic. Lately I've been drawn to Bianca and Reese on All My Children which is my longtime soap opera obsession. Spoilers have hinted this couple is doomed in a very huge and insulting way.

I'm almost positive if they are doomed I won't have the drive to finish my huge backstory for them about how they hooked up. Just because it seems sort of futile to write something long and lovely and fluffy romantic in a lot of ways for a couple that is dead in the water and becomes that way in such a manner that is thoroughly insulting and screws over Bianca yet again.

My question is for the people who read said fanfic. Do you feel the same? I mean, would you really want to keep reading a flufftastic romantic piece for Bianca and Reese if all the horrible spoilers do happen and their relationship ends up in utter shambles? I'm curious but I will be honest, your responses, whether they're negative or positive won't effect if I keep writing the story or not. That's all about my own tiny attention span and willingness to keep pimping the couple after everything that goes down on the show.

And since I'm still fond of Reese please don't bash her in your responses. I refuse to blame Reese for all the fucked up shit the writers are having her do just like I refuse to blame Bianca for not asking Kendall's permission for her husband to be the sperm donor daddy of Gabrielle. I'm irrational like that.

In the meantime, I'll keep writing and waiting for all the horribleness from spoilers to ensue. I remain interested in writing my AMC/L Word crossover fanfic for Helena and Bianca no matter what happens.

As well as maybe a fanfic that occurs after Bianca exits the show and she becomes super bitter and cynical and just closed off to the world after being screwed over so many times and then Frankie arrives back from the dead.

Comments

Re: Still fits, for now . . .

[careofsoul.livejournal.com]

I don't think that for the show the kiss is absolutely OOC for Reese - you have to know it's content. What if it has little or nothing to do with sexuality but connection? Somehow she is able to see that? Again, I get that it is a betrayal, but she isn't being honest with Bianca at any point of this story. The fanfic is better than the show - more depth and insight into the characters. Take Miranda for instance - often it's like she doesn't exist. Drieser makes her such an important part of the plot. All that being said - to me it is what leads up to the kiss and how it is handled that would lead to whether this story would continue to make sense.

Regardless of the show, the fanfic is simply great.

Re: Still fits, for now . . .

[murasaki1200.livejournal.com]

Hmmm...I'm really trying to figure out how it could make sense for someone who's in a relationship they treasure and don't want to lose to kiss someone else even if they're a confused about whether their current partner is the only one they could ever love. Whether that lover is a man or a woman is besides the point. Plus, this is Zach, who should be off limits to Reese for so many reasons, even if she were attracted to him. It is going to hurt Bianca so much to be right after all. In character!Reese would never do that. She would run from such a mess if anything.
Being this thoughtless and random just doesn't jive with what we've seen about Reese wanting to protect Bianca and being desperately in love and afraid to lose her. Which Reese still is, since she goes through with the wedding. I feel it's a bit of a character assassination because kissing Zach out of confusion is Reese putting herself and her need to clarify her confusion before Bianca, instead of trying to balance both of their needs as well as Gabby's needs.
Oooops. Sorry to be spamming dreiser's thread with this rant.

Re: Still fits, for now . . .

[dreiser.livejournal.com]

Don't worry about spamming. lol. Rant away. Lord knows we all feel like it. The bit with Reese never planning on telling Bianca was bad writing on my part and I'll fix it in the fanfic since that wasn't the impression I meant to leave.

Re: Still fits, for now . . .

[careofsoul.livejournal.com]

OK - I see your interpretation is "Being this thoughtless and random" about the kiss, but what if it is more like smashed, terrified, needy, and regretful? Again, not trying to make excuses - because it obviously needs to be addressed. But without seeing how it develops and how Reese handles it - her behavior on the show right now still fits for this story . . . in the future I can't say and it is speculation.

Re: Still fits, for now . . .

[murasaki1200.livejournal.com]

You're right, today's scenes still are in character. Let's hope for the best.